For the first time in 12 months, I know what day it is. It’s Wednesday. My third day of work, Baby-Ko’s third day of day care, and my third day of some serious constipation. (Wait, that’s a whole other issue). Anyway, the point is, it’s been quite a week already and my mind is racing with all sorts of things…

I am happy to announce that I’m now a full time writer/ producer at MomLogic.com. I have been a “network affiliate” with them with my blog but now I’m actually working there. First of all, returning to work has been a hell of a lot easier than I thought, not only because I’m actually doing what I love and am busy all day long, but because I’m working with a group of mostly women who are smart, funny, and fantastically dressed (which, by the way, makes me realize I have no clothes), but that are moms! So the fact that I’m working for, and with, a group of women who completely “get it” makes being away from the baby that much easier to deal with.
What hasn’t been easy is the logistics as far as picking up and dropping Baby-Ko off at day-care. Traffic is a nightmare and today, as I sat in bumper to bumper for AN HOUR AND A HALF on the 101, I literally had a melt down. I worried that I was abandoning him and how scary it must feel to have his mommy come so late and how hungry he must be… all of these horrible things. Ironically, I wrote a post today about how Day Cares get a bad rap. As I sat in traffic, cursing the gods for gridlock and for not making me rich enough to hire Mary Poppins as my nanny, it occurred to me that even if he was at home with a nanny, I’d STILL be feeling this anxiety and guilt… Day Care. Nanny. Doesn’t matter. Both aren’t me. 
Nonetheless, the show must go on and mommy’s gotta make some dough. She’s also gotta make a poop. But that may take some time… after all, I’m still getting adjusted….
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